A Little Bit of Rambling Nonsense For You To “Know Me Better”

by denisevlogs on Mar.12, 2009, under Uncategorized

I took sleeping pills about 3 hrs ago… why am I not already drugged alseep? Whatever.

I think every single blog I’ve ever written has been right before I’ve gone to sleep. I guess mainly because part of the reason I can’t sleep is that all of the thoughts in my head that just won’t shut up…. and I kind of feel like if I write something I drained out a few of them.

Tonight, as I impatiently wait for slumber… I’m entertaining myself by jumping back and forth from facebook, myspace, youtube, email, twitter, etc. etc. etc-fuckin-etera.

And today I started a new “dailybooth” account… so thats a new site to add to the list.

As I signed up for it… I was thinking “why am I signing up for this nonsense? what is this for? who the hell cares?”

But then I realized… well, why am I on any of these sites? Why do I make videos? Why do I twitter? Why do any of us do this?

So I thought about it. A lot. I tend to over think things. Some may see that as a flaw… I see it as a flaw, too. Sometimes I just can’t help it.

Don’t judge me.

After thinking about it, I came to a conclusion. Obviously we just want to express ourselves. We all want each other to know who we are. We want to matter. We want to connect. And everyday there is a new way to feed that hunger. Phones, emails, a new website, and so on.

The odd thing is that it feels like no matter what we do, we’ll never REALLY connect. No one REALLY knows me. NO ONE. And probably you, too.

You can’t read my mind or feel my feelings. I can’t plug my every thought and emotion into a friggen computer.

And not even just on that level. The people that are in lives don’t know us either.

Just because we talk a lot, see each other, touch each other, live side by side… it doesn’t mean you KNOW me.

Yet we continue to create more and more ways to communicate and express ourselves. We’re so starving to let the world know who we are.

But in the end… after you posted your video, you twittered your tweet, you snapped a photo on dailybooth, you updated your facebook status, you wrote a blog, you had a good convo on the cell with your best friend and then you fucked your boyfriend…

They don’t know you. Only you know you.

They’re just wondering if you read their facebook status yet.

Okay… now I’ll go twitter this blog.

5 comments for this entry:

Fro780
March 12th, 2009 on 1:59 am
wow… very insightful, but I think u are not looking at this in the right point of view, instead of looking into what people dont know, look at what people do know about you. Whoever you open yourself up to, knows what you want them to know about you, if your holding something back then it’s your fault that they do not know that aspect of you. That’s why we have facebook, myspace, twitter and YouTube, so we can show everyone who wants to know exactly who we are* if you choose to make that public. (*even if people act fake, that’s still some aspect of your personality). So if you want someone to know you better than make yourself known, tell them your thoughts and feelings, let them know when your thinking about this or that, and most of all show them who you are!
Cyn
March 12th, 2009 on 5:53 am
You are kinda crazy… but I love you! <3
Chris
March 12th, 2009 on 7:30 am
Great blog Denise. I really enjoy thinking about these realities of the world. What you are sort of explaining here, in a way is the meaning of life. Why are we all here? I personally think technology these days is something we all create to connect in ways that our minds are capable of doing without the connections of wires. Someday the world will be filled with conscious beings who are fully connected to all information as well as each other just via the mass of grey matter in between their ears. Thanks for making me think!
BobbySoFamous
March 12th, 2009 on 9:08 am
Interesting thoughts, but in when people say ‘you’ll never really know anyone’ I just think…who cares?

So you’ll never 100% know someone’s thoughts, feelings, insecurities. I think it’s more about “the journey” of getting to know someone, which sounds really gay but whatever. Or it’s more about the new personality you share and co-create with someone.

On the one hand technology is bad because everything has a NOW NOW NOW mentality and you can’t sit down and eat a meal and talk anymore. Instead it’s eat while driving/watching tv/twittering etc. On the other hand though it lets you connect more deeply and often with people you may not otherwise communicate with. I would never talk to people from England or Canada or California but I do now. So it’s a tradeoff I guess and it’s probably not going away so why not embrace it?
Neianeia
March 18th, 2009 on 2:00 am
I blog because I want to be rich, famous, and dillusional.